Journal

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 03:21:39 GMT

LAST WEEKEND(:

FRIDAY: After work Christinas mom, Heather, and Bret picked me up and we went back to Christinas. Everyone was basically gone by the time we got there. It was soo much fun Ryan came around 12:30(: and eventually people left and everyone ended up passing out. Her mom was soo funny ill never forget that night<3

SATURDAY: Christina stole her moms car at like 10 to go get us food, and her mom didnt even end up caring. Then she made like 3 trips from her house to take people home. Eventually we squeezed me Ryan, Lacretia, and Tesla in the back of her car, dropped Ryan off then we went to Kohls and the mall(: Got home sat around till Ryan and Eddie came to get me<3 We hung out at Benjis all night, fell asleep at like 6am .

SUNDAY: Woke up at like 11:30 Ryan brought me home and i went to work at 1.

Benchmarks have been driving me crazy, ontop of all these projects for school.

Tomorrow i hope i get do something<33

Thursday is trick or treat and me and my dad are supposed to go look at Christinas jeep thing thats for sale(:

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 00:08:06 GMT

-Last weekend.. friday night i got home from work and Ryan + others were waiting for me in my drive way. We eventually ended up at Jaymes it was a good time(: staying up till 730am is always fun. Saturday morning came home and sat around all day, Lacretia ended up coming over and we just waited for a phone call all night to see if we were doing anything. I really hate waiting for phone calls, i guess im too impatient:/ But we eventually fell asleep, woke up and Tisha picked us up, went over to her house with her JD and Daeshawn<3 She made us supper then we came back here and lacretia left.

-Monday Ryan, Jayme, and Alex picked me up. We just hung out at Nates house(: I love hanging out with all of them<33

-School. is so gay. every morning i fight with myself to get up. i really wish i could just drop out but i know thats not a good thing.all my papers and homework have really been stressing me out. i dont want to be in academic classes anymore.

-The Weekends are what i look forward too<333 I love hanging out with ryan(; and everyone else. Plus i always get to see Lacretia and Christina<3

-Ive been sick for the past week): even though its just a head cold it still sucks.

This weekend should be fun<333

Take me wiTh You;
Show me All lifes spLendoRs <3

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 23:28:02 GMT

Heres whats new.

Weekdays i just go to school come home ,do homework, go to work or sleep. Today i walked over to Katlyns house(: we hung out, i always have fun with her no matter what<3
I also hung out with Kim last week we went to taco bell and talked, i miss her.

Last weekend i hung out with Ryan everynight(: It was alot of fun especially thursday night cause i didnt have to get up early and go to work. I get to see my two favorite ladies from hollidaysburg a lot now(: CHRISTINA AND LACRETIA<3 It makes me happy. I love the weekends now, they are what i look forward too during the week. I didnt get to hangout with gina though it sucked:/

Sunday after work tisha picked me and gina up and we went over to her bfs house and ate supper with them and daeshawn<3 i love him soo much, hes soo big now and cute, especially when he says my name<3

Things are still gay here though.. i still wish it was just me, gina, and my dad living here. It would be a lot easier. But ive been trying not to let things bother me.

I get my license in less than 3 months and have like 400 saved up(:

I really dont like school for the most part. Acad. physics is soo hard me and gina want out of it.

We have another 3 day weekend and i cant wait<3

we all want something beautiful.

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 20:08:05 GMT

Yesterday was fun. Me and Gina got out of school at like 12 to go to an eye appointment. I have something wrong with my left eye ): Im getting glasses and more contacts. When we got home we ordered pizza ate and took a nap. Woke up got ready for the show, went to the show, it was good. Ryan and his friend picked us up at sheetz, and went to this place called the 'beach'. When we got there i stepped in this huge ass mud puddle. I was pissed. More people kept coming, Christina was there<3 Shes crazy. Gina was making me laugh all night, it was fun. Almost everyone wasted haha. Eventually we left and ended up at this kids house idk who he was but i was trying to sleep cause i had work at 9:30 and it wasnt happening. We came home at like 7 and i tried calling off work but i dialed the wrong number and then fell asleep so i get woken up at like 10 something to call my work and tell them i wasnt coming in. I was mad because they probably think i am irresponsible. But Ive been working for almost a year and thats the first time i ever called off, except for the time i called off to go to West Virginia with Cody and his parents. I slept till like 3 something. My dads trying to say i cant go anywhere today since i called off but i prob. will.

I got Vice President, Sami got president, it was really close between us though. And i heard some things that people did with the votes that shouldnt have. Oh well atleast i got one of the spots.

My brother has been out for a few days and i still havent seen him. It sucks. :/

love is just a waste of time.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 02:25:31 GMT

School, Work, and homework is basically what i do everyday.

Last saturday me and gina went to the mall and i paid for me and her to get her nails done. Then we hung out with some cool kids, it was a fun time(: even though i didnt go to bed till around 6 ha(;

Wednesday i walked home with Katlyn(: we went to the station mall medical center for her appointment, then we saw this pretty rainbow(: Got the bus to the mall , got some stuff then walked to Ashleys. We took this shortcut where there was supposed to be a bridge that crossed over a creek and we get to it and theres nothing but a thin piece of wood about 5 inches in width. Haha so we took off our shoes and threw all of our stuff to the other side and walked through the freezing water. Hung out with ashley for a while then came home.

Thursday was gay i had work and after all this drama happened.
I saw my mom that night.
I miss he soo much and wish things were how they were 4 years ago.
I miss Tisha and Daeshawn, and Gary.
I miss him too.</3 My dad still putting leanne before me and gina. Like i dont even have a room here. Its ridiculous. She doesnt even hug him or show any love for him at all , i know shes just using him for his money. I know i complain to much, i admit it, but its basically all i can do. Everyday i end up getting upset and crying , i have alot of mental brakedowns. But i try to tell myself things will eventually get better. Like i have been saying for the past 4 years. Friday(yesterday) came home from work and just sat here. Talked on the phone till 4 in the morning. Woke up at 7 something for work at 915. I was dead tired. Worked till 3 came home slept on and off all day, and now im just sitting here bored out of my mind.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 21:11:00 GMT

Friday went to school early had the meeting for jr. class. Im running for president. I went to work at 4. It was Best Buys Grand Opening... it was a little crazy, i have to remember how to do a lot of stuff. But i like it its fun. Came home from work and just sat here all night. Went to work early got my cell phone(: its pretty pimp. ha worked till 10. Cody picked me up... we came back here for a little talked and stuff. then he took me out to eat at dennys<3 came home watched a little bit of a movie then went to bed. It was so nice to wake up to him laying next to me with his arm around me again. But me, him, Gina, and Chase went to mcdonalds to eat. Came home i got showered then me and him went out to the mall so he could get applications. Yes, i know i said that me and Cody were done and prob. would never talk again, but he wants me to give him another chance, and im not sure what to do. I have been waiting 2 months for him to realize and he finally has. I still love him to death and care about him a lot.But i wont go into any more detail, im sure you already know if you are one of my close friends.

I still want to move out of here, i just wish i was 18 and out of school, or if my mom had an apartment i would move in with her. But no im just going to have to wait when i cant cause im not patient.

IWANNABEASHAPPYASICANBE.

ITS HARD TO ACT LIKE I DONT CARE.

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 19:48:34 GMT

School started a week ago.
My classes are pretty good.
I have first period with gina<3 So im glad for that.
I have A lunch and i sit with Katy, Kirstin, John, Chris, Byrant, Matt, and a few others.
I have been basically working everday after school, and on the weekends hanging out with gina and ashlie and the kids from bellwood<3 (:
Work is soo much fun, i love it<3
Im on the executive committee for school, and i might run for president.im not sure yet.
I still want to move out of here.. but i d k if that will happen till febuary.
I miss my mom.
Today at work we have a meet the family and friends night, im taking gina,tisha, daeshawn, and chelsey b. i think.
The grand opening is friday.
I miss Christina and lacretia.
I actually got to hangout with Katlyn the other day<3 We went to the mall and i got an outfit and a pair of flats.
This morning i met a qt at sunoco before my supposed to be meeting for the committee, he got me a cappicino(: then we went to school.

I think me and cody are really done this time. Like we will probably never talk to each other again. Some things i see make me realize a lot. But im doing ok. i guess.

I dont work tomorrow(: Hopefully i get to hangout with katlyn or someone.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect;
Every action in this world will bear a consequence.
If you wait around forever you will surely drown.

Please take me by the hand. Its soo cold out tonight.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 17:22:11 GMT

I dyed my hair dark brown. It turned out really dark, but i guess everyone likes it. Tuesday after work i went to the show at the church, then after that we went to Dennys. Wednesday and thursday i cant remember what happend. Friday me, gina, ashley, and kirstin went to elveys house, there was a lot of people there. And one crazy night(: I had to get up and leave at like 7 cause i had work at 8, i was soo tired and kind of sick. I couldnt move at work, i just stood there while everyone worked. Me, Zach and Tyler went to sheets for lunch. I felt better after i ate. They let us out early. Then later on that night Adam P. picked us up and we went to his house to hangout. Yesterday i had work 8 to 5 and it was our first day to start training. I was falling asleep during the whole thing. Last night we met everyone at sheetz because we were supposed to be going to elveys for his birthday party. but we didnt end up going there so we sat at sheetz for 2 hours looking for a place to go. Everyone just got split up, and eventually we went to Blakes house and hung out there with him, Eric, blakes brother, and some others.

Today i didnt have work. Cody came up around 4, we went to the mall, i got a pair of sneakers, two shirts and a wallet, oh yea and lip rings. I still need some stuff for school.

And i dont know what to do now about Cody , i think he wants me back.. i knew this was going to happen, i still love him soo much, but he hurt me by doing that. And i just dont know, i wish i could go into hte future and see what would be the right decision. Im soo confused/sad/happy/aggrivated. a;lsjdfl;sjdf;alsjdf I dont know what to do. God ja;sldfja;lsdjgf;saljdf
I dont know what im doing tonight but i dont want to sit here. Hopefully i dont.

Im not ready for school to start at all.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 23:23:58 GMT

Last monday was my last day at mcdonalds.
Tuesday met Christina at the mall, went to the pool hall for a bit, then went and hung out at her friends house. It was fun, besides me getting sick for a little ha. We got dropped off at like 8 with no sleep at all and we had to go straight to my grams house to help her clean so we were dead. Cleaned and moved everything in her room. She let us sleep for a little, made us lunch gave me her and gina 20 dollars(: came home slept and me and Christina went to the pool hall. It was fun i made 5 bucks playing this really good guy in pool. Went home and just sat there the rest of the night.

Thursday me and Jena went to the wingoff,left to go out to eat at TGI Fridays it was good. Went back to the wingoff for a little. Later on me and her went over to Johnnys and hungout with everyone there. She left and i stayed, fun too.

Friday me Gina, and Ashlie had Ben pick us up and take us to the mall so i could get my check. Came home got ready went to the show at the church then went to Adams house(: There was a good amount of people there. It was alot of fun. BLUE WAVE<333 Gina was hilarious. Ashlie too. ha i didnt sleep at all except for like an hour then i woke up at 8 and i had to be at the Vo tech by 830 and Kirstins car was parked at Martins like 2 miles from Adams house so we had to walk the whole way to her car. Then i was like 5 min. late. Was there from 830 to like 1. I was falling asleep during the speeches or w.e they were and movies. Came home and slept like the whole day. Yesterday i had work at 8 and it was at the store for the first time. We had to do a little bit of training and unpacking boxes and stuff. Met a few new people. Ill be making 7.84 now for some reason instead of 7.50. So im pretty happy. Yesterday was Ashlies birthday we went to Dennys to eat. Then met Murphy at sheetz and just sat here for the rest of the night.

Today me adn gina woke up kylie picked us up and we went school shopping. One shirt from gabs. One pair of jeans from hollister, and a pair of tan pants from there for work, and a cute tanktop. For those three items i spent 94 dollars. Its expensive there. Oh well. I got a cute tank top and little sweater from Rue21. And thats all. Tomorrow i think we are going again. I work 5-9, and 30 hours this week and next. But idc i want the money(:

School is in like one week. I had an amazing summer for the most part. The only bad part was when me and Cody broke up... and me not getting to see my mom, Tisha, and Daeshawn alot:/ Going to the Beach was the funnest<33 I miss it like crazy<3 But this summer went by too fast.

Me and Gina have been hanging out everyday and it makes me happy(: Ashlie too<3

I might go to walmart and get hair dye.... any suggestions for the color?

so i guess ill see you, ill see you around.

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 01:30:34 GMT

Thursday my mom wanted to take us shopping for a wedding outfit but we didnt end up going, she stopped by and i talked to her for a little bit. I miss her alot. Christina got dropped off here, we all went to the wingoff. Got to see Lacretia for a little. Almost got into a fight with some girl even though i hate fights and i think there is no point but if she would of hit me i would of hit her back. Steph gave us a ride home. She picked us back up and me and Gina hungout with her for the first time in like 2 years. Went to Super Sheetz and stuff came home went to bed.

Yesterday woke up early to go to the mall and tanning bed with Steph. Came home got showers and went to the church show. Went to Dennys afterwards with Gina, Ashlie, Aaron, Justin, Jeff, and some others. Came home and they came back around 2 picked us up and we went to Aarons for the night. I got a cool nickname ... Chels Against the World. ahha. Ginas is Mean Gine and Ashlies is Dirt. Didnt got to bed till like 6 , and Jeff brought us home around 11:30. Went back to sleep till 2:30. Got ready for the wedding reception. Went it was nice, i got to see my mom and talk to her for like an hour. I really do miss her. Shes doing a lot better though, she has a job at Boscovs, even though she still might be doing that shit im still happy that she is trying again. I love how i can talk to her about anything and tell her anything and she will listen and give me advice. I just wish she wouldnt do that stupid shit. It scares me and i hate what it does to her and how it affects us. But i dont know. She is still my mom and i still love her.

Now im waiting for Christina to call back to see if im going to the sand banks with them...
i work tomorrow and monday then im done working for McDonalds thank god. Ill miss the people but not the job ha.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 17:41:30 GMT

So ive been basically working till close since last wed. and close till this wed.
Best Buy called and asked if i wanted to move up to Customer Service instead of being a cashier because they think i can excel there better, so i said yea, and now instead of my hourly wage being 7.25 it will be 7.50... so im pretty excited. Friday night Christina, Heather, Tesla, Angela, Alex, and Nate picked me up from work. It was a fun night. I dont feel like going into detail. I was supposed to stay with Chrisitna but i just asked Nate to take me home since he was taking Kevin too. So i didnt come home till like 6 and just went to bed.

Yesterday i worked till 6:30. Cody picked me up from work. It was the first time i saw him since like a month ago. I thought it would be awkward but it wasnt to bad. We came back here so i could get changed, gave him some of his shirts, talked a little... then me him and his friends went to Super Sheetz. We were there for like an hour cause his friend got caught stealing lol. Eventually he we went back to my house said goodbye and he left. Im not going to lie, it was nice to see him again. And i do miss him.

I just sat in the house for the rest of the night with my sister(: We went crazy with taking pictures, then at like 4 we pranked Kevin and some other kid. Haha she is soo funny. I love her to death and am so glad to be hanging out with her like everyday again<3

Wed. might be my last day at mcd's so im pretty happy. Im sick of closing.

hopefully time is the answer.

THE BEACH WAS AMAZING!!!

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 22:21:53 GMT

Last tuesday i had my second interview for best buy and it went good so they kept me there for my third and i got the job(: Later on that night a dork came over and hung out for a bit(: I didnt go to bed till like 4 and woke up at 7 cause thats when crhistina came. Went and took a drug test for my new job came home went to teh mall with Christina, work, then back home finished packing for the beach then went to Michelles and this is how the rest went. Its going to be very detailed because i had an AMAZING TIME! AND I NEVER WANT TO FORGET IT!!

THURSDAY We left for the beach around 1:35 am. Me and Christina slept most of the way and woke up as we were about a half hour away. We went to the beach as soon as we got there at like 7 and it was soo nice. We didnt go swimming though cause we were leaving soon to go get something to eat. So we went to McDonalds for breakfast. Then we drove to Salisbury to go to the zoo. It was free to get in and was pretty cool. I got to see a freckled bear, a cougar, bob cats, alligators, and peacocks(: it was pretty cool. My cousin got shit on by a bird it was funny. We left there then went to check in to our hotel. Then went to the beach. Me and Christina passed out when we were laying out and eventually woke up at like 5. Went back to the hotel got showers and ready. Went to a pizza shop to eat. Met these two guys that are models for ambercrombie that were staying right above us, walked the boardwalk for a bit, then came back and hung out with them. We all went down to the beach around like 3 and just walked it for a while. Went back to their room watched TV then went down to ours and fell asleep.

FRIDAY We woke up went to breakfast with my cousins and their kids(: Went to the beach and layed out like all day. Got telescope pictures taking, twice. ahha for some reason the second guy really wanted to take our picture. We attempted to boogie board but the waves beat us up too much. I stepped on a crab and it bit my toe. Went back to the hotel got showers and such. Then we went on the boardwalk with my Michelle,her kids, Billy and Tammy, and their kdis. Christina got a Henna Tattoo lol. Shes a dork. Went to another Pizza place and ate there. Back to the hotel and got a little crunked(: Well Christina was gone. I was just good. Hung out with the guys upstairs then went to bed.

SATURDAY/SUNDAY This will have the most stuff because it was prob. the best 2 days down there, even though all of them were great<3

Woke up walked around the corner from our hotel to get breakfast. We were too burnt to go to the beach so we didnt. We just got showers and stuff while Michelle and them went to swim at a pool. We rushed down with our hair wet and make up barely done to the under 21 dance club called H2O because if we got there before 8:30 we could get in for 10 dollars instead of 20 so we did that, got inside then went back to our hotel to do our hair. We got held back from Kyle and Geovonie(sp) the guys that stayed above us because they wouldnt let us finish getting ready. Then we didnt end up going straight back we met up with my cousins and their kids at the amusement park and watched the kids while they went on the Sling Shot. Me and Christina wanted to go on it soo bad but we didnt have 20 each to spend on it. But she was attracted to the guy working the ride lol but when we were going back to H2O she had the chance to talk to him but didnt. Went back their got asked to dance by all these guys but we werent up for all the ass shaking, and girls dancing in cages. hahah. we didnt stay long cause yea. ha. So when we left we went back to the amusement park so Christina would talk to that kid, and she asked him since they were closing and only had two people in line if they would let us ride for free and he said we had to ask him manager so i did and he said yes!!! We were soo excited. We had them take pictures before when we got strapped in, but heres a little about the ride. It is like a sling shot,thats what its called but it is huge. like as high as the Altoona Hospital and you get strapped in these chairs and its just like a hampster ball only two metal cirles with no walls, and you get shot up into the air going lord knows how fast and it took away my breath i couldnt scream or anything the first time we went up and the ball went up side down. Just think of it as a basketball tied with bungy cords one on each side and you are throwing it up and down. It is the number one ride thriller in the world. And i would ride it over and over again. But anyways it was AWESOME. Then we talked to the kid that ended up being from Russia and 20 years old ha and by that time it was like 2 and time for us to head back to the hotel and all these guys tried stopping us so it took us longer. We ran into Kyle and Geovonie then finally left them and went to our hotel. When we were on our balcony these two guys walked bye and Christina and I worked up enough balls to call them over. Witch we said when we got to the beach that we wouldnt meet any cute guys till the last night even though the two above us werent that bad. So we talked to them ( Jon(: and Nathan ) they went and got some stuff from their hotel then came back and we all drank a little but not enough to get crunked haha(: We all just sat on the balcony and talked. Kyle and Geovonie got really jealous.. but they were wasted like they were everytime we saw them so we all just walked down to the beach at like 4:30 cause i wanted to get some seashells since they come up around that time(: Jon was the only one that found nice ones and he kept giving them to me (: i found this 12 inch long jelly fish laying in the sand! It was crazy. Since we couldnt find that many we decided to wait till it got light out so we just sat there it was nice cause noone was around and eventually went from dark to light in the matter of like 30 min. We got to see the sun rise it was soo pretty(: i took a picture. Then we went looking for more seashells and ended up finding hermit crabs, crabs, and jellyfish, some seashells. Finally around 7 something we went back to the hotel they left to go get showers and me and Christina went to breakfast. Back to the hotel around 8:30 and fell asleep till 10:30 because we had to be checked out by 11. Jon called Michelles cell phone and we made plans to meet at the beach. So sadly we packed up all of our stuff went to look at and pick out our Telescope Pictures, and i wanted to get 3 but ended up getting one because all of the other ones were horrible. I got one of me, Christina, and Michelle its cute<3 Went back to the beach met up with Jon and Nathan went swimming for a little, and i didnt want to go under but then Jon ended up getting me under(: We had to leave so we said goodbye and Jon got my s.n so hopefully i get to talk to him sometime and go party with him or just hangout (: Made one last stop at the store to get my two dwarf frogs (: they were freaking 24 dollars for them the little square tank and food oh well its like the only thing i bought myself besides 3 bellybutton rings for 20 dollars. Then we started on our way home. We didnt get home till around 10, unpacked, Eric came to get Christina and i just sat around till i fell asleep.

Yesterday woke up went to work 11 to 2 came home eventually went to Heathers and then me, Christina and her went to the pool hall. Then stayed at Christinas house with her and Heather. Ate a whole bunch of popcorn and found out Heather could put 52 pieces in her mouth, didnt go to bed till like 3.

Today we woke up at 6:30 cause her mom would be our only ride to hollidaysburg. Got dropped off at Erics, got kicked out 10 minutes later by his mom. Went to McDonalds and Sheetz. Then we went to Heathers i played basketball with Josh at like 9 in the morning. We played HORSE which i lost, PIG lost again, IT and i won(: and PIG again but lost haha. Then i thought of the brilliant idea of all of us going to Raystown so Eric, Heather and I came to my house to get some stuff, picked up Zak, then met Christina, Josh, and i forget his name in martinsburg. We got there around 12 and the water was soo nice. Left around 4, went back to erics, hungout and made hot dogs. Dad picked me up around 7. Now im just sitting here being bored, i think i might hangout and go night swimming with Gina somewhere later on tonight<3

Tomorrow maybe Raystown again, but this time we are taking food and cooking out(: and taking floaties so i dont have to touch the yucky fish poop bottom.

Well ive been having a great time the past three weeks!! Its unbeliveable<33

I do miss someone :/ but idk i guess its meant to be this way... theres always others out there i guess.

This was a long update sorry for you who actually read my entries. But i like to read back and the beach is something i wanted to remember.

Just dont forget to think about me...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:38:32 GMT

- interview for Best Buy went good
- friday went to Cresson, tons of people i didnt know where there, had a lot of fun until i got sick, went back to christinas house and stayed there
- woke up and payed Eric 10 bucks to put his spare tire on and take me the whole way from blue knob to the mall, i ended up being a few mintues late
- saturday came home got ready, went to super sheetz with Gina, Ashley, and Andy. saw a few people i havent seen forever. Kevin was there, talked to him a little. stayed the night at Ashleys grams
- woke up to like 15 guys knocking on the door, they are in a band well two or something.
- left her grams, went to work, came home Christina called and told me to go to the Drive-In with her Eric, Josh, Zak, and some others. so i just did my makeup and didnt do my hair haha it was fun, we stopped a block away from it and me and Christina got in the trunk of Erics car so we wouldnt have to pay. the movies werent too good. Me and Christina rode the whole way to her house in his trunk. he would pull over into a parking lot and do donuts so we were like dead when we got to her house. but it was a lot of fun<3
- went to bed at like 4 and woke up at 7. Got breakfast from sheetz<3 walked all over hollidaysburg, in the school, to her cousins house, then we went to the mall at like 12. i thought i worked at 4 but i didnt work till 6 so i looked really dumb.
- Christinas going to the beach with me know(: im excited<3 we are going to have so much fun, i saved up two of my paychecks just to go!
- Best Buy called me back for a secong interview, tomorrow at 3, wish me luck!
- hopefully i get to hangout with Lacretia and someone else before i leave<3
- oh yea. my dads ex gf well gf now is back here. the one that gave away my puppy. i dont like it our house is too small for us and her kids. it sucks. my dad is already starting to change again for her.

well im done for now...

THIS IS GOODBYE?

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 00:31:31 GMT

The other day i walked to Palminos and Christinas mom picked me up and we went to her house, she lives in Portage i think? All i know its really far. Sat around her house, finished getting ready, Erik,Houck,and some other kid came over. Then Kevin came and finally Tom, Brittany, and Ang got there and we all left for the DRIVE IN Christina and i drove with Kevin in his unbelieably comfy car. When we were a block away we put Kevin in his trunk so he didnt have to pay. After we were already in there we found out Toms car broke down,but we couldnt leave and come back and eventually they fixed it and came. We watched The Pirates of the Carribean 2 and The Fast and the Furious 3 they were good (: Even though i didnt see the first Pirates of the Carribean. After that we all went to Dougs and hungout there. Of course i didnt go to sleep till 6:30 and we all woke up at 930 to Dougs step mom slaming the door and telling everyone to get out of her house. So we left and went to Eriks then Christina and i walked to the store, then to her friends house and hungout with him till like 1,back to Eriks and my dad picked me up. Came home got a shower and Katy came over<3 I love her because all we do is talk about everything and understand each other. I love my sister too cause she understands me also. We took some funny pictures then went to bed. I have an interview for Best Buy tomorrow, and i hope i get it cause im sick of McDonalds.

But the break is over we are done for now i guess. Who knows if he will ever realize how much he is loosing here. But i cant help anything, i didnt do anything wrong, i did everything for him, he just changed or is going through somehting because i know this isnt like him. But then he might have been like this all along. I dont know all i know is that i have been having fun the past week and i just want the rest of my summer to be good as well. I have been seeing my sister more and its nice.

I miss him more than anything<33

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 06:20:43 GMT

The past few days have been fun. I forget what all happened but heres what happened yesterday. Work came home and got ready then met up with Christina, Brittany, and Ang. We hungout there for a while then went to Christinas friend Dougs house. Sat around there went back to Brittanys thinking we were just going to stay there for the rest of the night but when me and Christina walked to sheetz we met up with Kevin he came back to Brittanys then me, Christina and him went back to Dougs. Got a little crunked(: haha and watched The Hills Have Eyes. Its a crazy ass movie. We didnt leave there till 7 then when back to Brittanys and i feel asleep outside on this swing bed until i got so hot i couldnt even sleep so i went inside. Around 1 me and Christina got dropped off at the mall and hungout there till i had to go to work. We both looked horrible and i felt like dead at work all day long. Tomorrow i am supposed to hangout with Christina idk what we are going to do yet,but im excited(:

Im going to Ocean City in 9 days with my cousin! I cant freaking wait, it will be the third time ive been to the beach in my whole life. (:

Ive lost around 15 pounds in the past week and some days. Which shocks me. Oh well. Im going to bed finally.

Hope is all i have...

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 19:46:40 GMT

Sunday my dad took me driving for like 30 min. I did pretty good. I havent really been doing anything but going to work and sitting in the house. Wednesday i went to Lacretias and we just hungout at her house with her bf and watched this movie. Yesterday i left her hous about 12 came home layed out with gina then went to work. Today i woke up early to go try to find another job but it failed.

Its been one week and a day. Im horrible. He leaves to go to teh beach today, and i dont know when i will get to talk to him next. Im trying to believe that i will be fine. But i need stuff to do to pass the time. He says we are on a break, and that he doesnt know how he feels cause he has a lot on his mind. But yea idk how everything is going to end up and i hate it.

I have to pay a fine for some stupid girl saying i pushed her down the steps like two years ago, within 10 days or i will have to go to court.

I might be going to the beach the 28,29,and 30th. But im not sure yet.

I am not patient, and its killing me.

AND I NEVER WANT TO SEE THE END.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 20:59:55 GMT

For the forth of July Lacretia, Christina and I went to Lakemont. It was alright, the fireworks were good. I had fun hanging out with them though. We stayed at her house and me, Christina, her bf, and Lacretias brother went night swimming in the rain lol. It was fun. I stayed at her house then the next day we came back to my house and Cody was back from camping by then. We then all went to Galactic ice to hangout so Lacretia could see her bf. My dad picked us up and we hung out here and watched the NoteBook. Went to work the next day came home got ready, they left then Cody and I went down and hung out with my cousin. She let me drive her car from BiLo to her house, and that would be my first driving lesson since I got my permit. Hopefully my dad will take me tomorrow.

Yesterday was horrible. I cried non stop all day long. Im pathetic, and its sad. Cody told me that he didn’t know if he could continue to stay here because he missed his parents, and that he couldn’t take the little fights that we have anymore, and he couldn’t continue to hurt me anymore. So basically we broke up. I went to work came back found out once again something that I was shocked to find out. I wont go in to details, but for now me and Cody are on a break, w.e that means. I guess until he figures out and realizes a lot of stuff.

I just think its funny how some people have something good right there then they let it go. People make mistakes, no ones perfect. I wish he would see that, I know he isn’t, and that I love him for who he is, and just move on with everything, but I guess he needs time to think about how much he has hurt me and what he wants. Im trying to be strong. Its just hard, I cant even imagine what its like for some other people. He tells me that I deserve better, but for some reason I don’t feel that I do. Five months is the longest relationship I have ever been in and it is hurting me so bad that I don’t know what to do or think, because I feel like no matter what I don’t want to loose him. I have never been in love, never said I love you to anyone but him, because I just don’t say it unless I mean it. I try to tell myself something but then I feel so different. I know I am only 16 and have a long way to go , I guess it just hurts your first time being in love, and when you come across someone you really want to be with, it makes it worse. I have no idea what will happen between the two of us. I want to say , I hope it all works out but then ….. I don’t know. Im confused on what to do.

I guess I am going to the show tonight with my sister. I love her she can help me out a lot with her past experience. I try to listen to what she tells me I guess I am being dumb and listening to what I want to hear.

Today Cody left around 12 then around 2 Gina and I went to get our hair cut. Then we stopped at my sisters house that she is now moving out of. I saw Daeshawn for the first time in like two months. I missed and am going to miss him soo much. My mom was there. I don’t know where she is going to go since Tisha and Daeshawn are moving to west Virginia. I feel like I am losing everyone right now and its horrible );

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 20:32:46 GMT

Last Wed. was the Curve game with my work. It was actually pretty fun. There was this famous guy there, i forget what his name was, but you would never think to see him in altoona. We got to sit in a box seat, and everything was free. THen i went home and cody came home a little after i did. Thursday i had work and right before i left cody told me he was going to go camping with his parents so i didnt get to spend time with him before he left cause i was on the way out the door. I was sad at first cause i wouldnt get to see him till Wed. but then i realized it would be good for us to be apart for a few days. After work i went home and got changed then went to get my physical. After that me and gina hungout with lindsay for a little bit then Lacretia and Christina called me. I came up to her house and we had a bon fire. It was alot of fun (: Her brother like got caught on fire. I of course fell asleep early cause i wasnt use to staying up past 12. Friday Cody called me to say goodbye cause he wouldnt be able to call me from Virgina cause it would cost money. Lacretia, Christina and i just sat around until we got a ride to the mall and ate food till i had to go to work. I cant remember what i did friday. Saturday i had work, then i came home and got ready to go bowling with Jena and her sister. I had fun, it was expensive though. Sunday work, then i came home and Lacretia and Christina came over, we hungout went for a walk to the park and just talked forever. I of course fell asleep on them again when they went down to make food. Yesterday i woke up and got a phone call asking if i could go into work from 11:30 to 5 so i did and they just stayed at my house and waited for me. After work i got ready and we went to the pool hall. Ive never been there before its nice. It was free also because it was Ladies Night. Christina beat me in the first game. Then she got her ass kicked by Lacretia (: haha Came back to Lacretias, went for a walk through this big field to meet Lacretias bf. Sat around this place for like 2 hours then we didnt have a flash light to use on the way back because the battery died so i was a little scared. Me and Lacretia were dieing of heat so we like took off our shirts and just left our bras on haha (: it was way to hot to be hiking up hills in pants, plus we were in the middle of no where. When we got back to her house we went night swimming! It was really warm, but there were alot of beatles. We came in and i got in her tanning bed (: AFter that it was like 3 and we went upstairs and lacretia made the best grilled cheese i ever ate. THen i fell asleep, but was proud of myself cause it was like sometime after 4. We woke up around 1, ate and now we are just sitting around getting ready.We were supposed to go to this murf place but her brothers 4 wheeler broke so now i thikn we are just going to lakemont (: TOMORROW CODY COMES HOME!! IM EXCITED TO SEE HIM ITS BEEN LIKE A WHOLE WEEK!!! <33 Saturday is my family ruin. I know i get into to much detail thats probably why noone reads my entries but i dont care cause i like to read them months later.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY<33

SOMETIMES I FEEL UNSURE...

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 14:20:48 GMT

So my summer so far has pretty much been nothing but work and sitting at my house with cody and gina. My dad got out like a week ago, we had towake up at 4 in the morning to go get him. last tuesday i went up to codys house. The next day we went to this rope swing thing. It was alot of fun, except i was to scared to go off the big rope and all the bugs that bit me. Thursday he took his drivers test and passed (: then we came back here. Yesterday i went to a show with gina, cody and john. It was the first show i have been to in a long time. I actually have off today and tomorrow. Tomorrow night im going to a curve game with my work hah. Everything is freee so i dont care.

I really want to start hanging out with more people and getting out of my house. But people tell me they are going to call and dont. It upsets me. Its also hard cause i usually work part of the day and im too tired to do anything or get ready.

I havent talked to my mom for like a week, i wish she would realize what she is doing and how wrong it is. I love her so much i just wish she would change.

The other night gina found something in my dads room that upset us both so much. I try to believe that he is a changed person and wont go back to that stuff, yet its hard when he has went back to it soo many times, leaving my sister and i hopeless. He is living with my gram and has to for about 3 months, so me , gina , and cody are all by ourselves.

I think i am going to go take my permit today. And im starting to save up for a car (:

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 01:32:08 GMT

This weekend was fun. Friday i worked till close :/ then me and cody just hungout all night, and saturday we woke up and i went to work, after i got off work we went shopping (: i got this really cute tank top, muscle shirt,3 shirts, and these shorts that i love from old navy<3 Then we came home and played xbox all night lol. Today i worked and closed on a sunday for the first time. Cody had to get picked up before i got off :/ But i get to see him in 2 more days cause i requested off for wed., thurs., and friday so i can go up to his house (: I havent been up there for a while and im really excited! Im a little scared for this rope swing thing of a cliff or w.e it is haha. We only have ONE WHOLE DAY OF SCHOOL LEFT! AND 2 HALF DAYS!
IM REALLY EXCITED FOR SUMMER<3
Cody goes to take his test thursday and i will be up there so im going to make him pass lol! I really want to go to the beach this summer. Hopefully my dad will take us for the first time.

This was kind of point less but i dont care, i like to get stuff out. <33

I.LOVE.THIS.KID,HE.IS.SOO.AMAZING. C.S♥

months...

Tue, 30 May 2006 02:31:42 GMT

Once again it has been forever since i have updated.
We now have 5 days of school left and 2 half days.
Last week i missed two days because i couldnt find a ride to school, and it was finals week so yea. About 3 weeks ago i moved out of my sisters and back into my dads house with my sister and my mom. I went with Cody and his parents to West Virginia for his brothers graduation, it was a lot of fun.
My life has basically consisted of school, work, and seeing Cody on the weekends<3 It will be 4 months here soon (: I really love him and he makes me soo happy (:

My dad gets out on June 18th. Hopefully. Once again there is going to be a lot of work to do with the house and outside. Codys parents brought i weed wacker down and him and his dad did a lot so my dad doesnt get a fine again because of them sending us a notice for like the 3rd year in a row. I really hope things will get better for me and gina. I dont know what my mom is going to do, she seems to make little attempts to get a job and what not. But still no luck. I have learned to deal with all the problems that come my way, except for maybe a few.

Im excited for summer. I dont really want to work but its nice to have money even though i still havent really spent a paycheck on myself yet. But i dont really need anything...and i know im not going to like working inside when its so nice out. If plans go right Cody will be staying for the summer and maybe longer, hopefully<3

Im happy for Gina, she is dating a really nice boy.

Everytime i go to hangout with one of my friends it never works out for some reason , i feel bad cause something either comes up or they just dont go through wiht it, i feel like i dont talk to that many people anymore.

DOnt feel like writing anymore. Maybe ill update more often.

ITS BEEN A WHILE.

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 22:50:54 GMT

Ok so my computer has been shut off for about a month. Which sucks.

A lot has been happening since then. Heres a quick summary...

- Me and Cody are going out, it will be a month sunday. HES SO NICE. He lives like 45 minutes away, but we see each other every weekend and talk everynight on the phone. He made me this CD and got me a dozen roses for Valentines day<333
- Aubrey has started to hangout with us again (:
- My lip is healed and looking good, i just need money to get a lip ring.
- Tisha has a nice new bf and he got us a big flat screen tv.
- I got a job at mcdonalds at the mall.
- Ive been missing a lot of school.
- My mom is staying at my dads house..
- He has been writing us a lot, and will probably get out in June? <3
- I havent been doing much of anything, like no shows.
- This past weekend i went to Codys house and stayed the whole weekend in belleville, it was alot of fun, we went to DQ and got free food, and hung out with his friends, his mom made me fudge<33 and i looked for gold with his dad? hah it was a great weekend though.
- Tisha got a puppy. It pees everywhere so it gets on my neres but im the only one whos nice to it.
- Leanne and Chase moved out of my dads house. They left it trashed. And chase stole our XBOX. Which will come back on him in the long run. Im happy they are out of my house though.
- I didnt go to school today, me and tisha went and looked at these apartments. One is right by the school so i think it would be nice if we moved there. But the only bad thing is me and gina would have to share the attic.

I think thats it, and if not oh well.

I miss Lacretia and Kim alot. They really should hangout with me soon! (;

<33

ILL SAY GOODBYE FOR THE LAST TIME; ONLY THIS TIME ILL MEAN IT.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 05:33:16 GMT

TODAY IS MY SISTERS 17TH BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA B I LOVE YOU! ♥

LAST WEEKEND WAS PRETTY MUCH A REALLY GOOD WEEKEND. HERES A SUMMARY YO.

Friday me and Gina went to the mall with Matt? Then came home; and i sat around until i walked to someones house after fighting with Tisha. After there i went to Jennas and hung out with her and saw the baby, i was going to stay but idk it was weird.

Saturday i slept in and my plans did not go like i planned at all. Me and Kim were supposed to go hangout with Ryan and Bryant before the cool kids from belleville came. But i didnt wake up till like 1 and we didnt end up hanging out with ryan and bryant and i didnt think i was going to hangout with Cody. So i sat around trying to find them rides, but it didnt work, and then me, Gina, Ashley, and my mom went to Sacred to get our piercings but they said they arent doing them till monday. Then i came home and Cody called saying he got a ride, so Kim got dropped off and we went to pick him up at the mall. While we were waiting for Ashley to call , we got stuck with a horrible smell. My dog got sprayed by a skunk and my mom accidentally let her in the house so the whole house stunk really bad. LOL it was funny and horrible. EVentually we went to ashleys aunts and had fun there(: The only part i didnt like was sleeping on the floor with no blankets or pillows. Kim got the couch lucky her ha. We got a ride home at like 9 , Melissa took Cody to the mall so he could get picked up and Kim got picked up from my house and i went to bed for basically the rest of the day till like 4.

I had to stay after school to make up a test:/ Im sick of school; but try not to think about it.
Gina has to basically scream a million times to get me up. Its horrible.

I really enjoy my new cellphone; its a lot easier for people to get ahold of me.

We have a four day weekend and im pretty excited for it.

THURSDAY I AM GETTING MY LIP PIERCED!!!

ONCE ONE COMES, THEY ALL COME.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 17:34:17 GMT

So i didnt go to school today for no reason at all ha. I just woke up and i love being able to sleep, but i dont feel like working on my projects so im doing everything to avoid them.

Last weekend was pretty nice, friday i talked on the phone all night. Saturday i hung out with Jenna and we went to the mall. Her baby is so cute. Then i came home then went and hung out with two losers, it was a pretty fun time there. I came home sunday and Gina had some people over, they left and i just sat around until she called and her and the three boys came and picked me up. I never talked to or met them until then hah so it was a little weird, but they live in Lewistown and are very fun to hangout with. We drove around and went to walmart.

This whole week ive been going to school and working on my American Studies and English projects that are due tomorrow. Monday i went to my brothers house and cleaned his room for him. I came home and had a big surprise. I was sitting on my computer and i hear this cell phone ringing so i look around and theres one sitting on my stand, and i yelled to tisha if i should answer it cause i thought she got a new one but it was my mom saying merry christmas, cause she didnt get us anything. But im pretty happy that i have one now (: My number is 932-9524 hit me up yo :D hah.

Ive been trying to not let all the things that i usually let put me down get to me anymore and try to think positive most of the time. So ive had an ok week. This weekend idk what im doing but sometime me and gina are going to hangout with Cody and whoever he brings with him from lewistown. lol Oh yea and Kim is going to hangout too<3 I cant wait im soo excited <3

My dad called us from prison yesterday. I MISS HIM SOO MUCH. This time that he went in has probably affected me worse then all the other times. It would be soo much easier on me and gina if he was out.BUt he still has another 5 months. I hope they go fast just like the last 5 have gone.

Ginas birthday is in 5 days (:

Daeshawn will be two in march. Hes soo big and bad, but i love him more then anything. Its soo cute how he says my name <3

Now i have to finish my report ):

HES SIMPLY; YET CONFUSING.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 21:35:39 GMT

So all week last week was benchmarks. Chemistry i got a 74% English 85% American Studies 78% French 90% ( which is (unbelieveable,because i suck at french.)And Algebra i got a 95/110 dont know what percent that is hah.

FRIDAY WAS GREAT<3
Kim came over and we got ready to go to the show in Tyrone. We had to wait for Chris to drive from Lancaster though so he didnt pick us up till like 8 and we got the the show after 2 bands already played but luckily WINGSRIPPEDOUT only played two songs. They were great like always. I got to hear Valencia for the first time live and they were good. After it was over me and Kim talked to my favorite person from WRO CHRIS (: and a few others. THey are soo nice, i wish they lived here. But then we came back to Altoona and went to Kings to eat. EVeryone was there. Then KIm and I came back here and i got into it with tisha. gay.

SATURDAY WAS INTERESTING.
I stayed in the house the whole day and slept most of it. Sat on the computer and talked to people.

SUNDAY WAS FUN.
I got dropped off at Kims and we finished making Bakers(Emily) big birthday card. Then Katie came with this big cow ballon hahaha. AT like 6 we all rushed up to Bakers and surprised her (: We ate pizza and then played TABOO. I have to say i really like that game even though i tried to combine it with Sharades and everyone yelled at me haha. But i wouldnt doubt that almost everyone lost their voice or something ha. I cant wait to see the all the pictures haha. They should be interesting. I left around 9; and game my mom a lecture, but shes never going to listen or do anything until she wants to.

TODAY IS EMILY'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR (: !!!!!
Im dont know what im doing today; im supposed to hangout with someone i think.

We change classes tomorrow. I go to Gym second period. Which is going to be gay. And health 4th.

Gina will eat lunch with me now (: Which is good.

My cell phone got picked up today ; and i will be getting a new one. If anyone has a fax machine ha you should let me know ..

Taco Time still isnt opening yet. I hope they open soon so i can start working... it will help me get my mind off everything.

I hate seeing people that i used to hangout with and dont anymore. I wish things didnt change so much; sometimes. It kind of hurts to remember how many fun times you used to have and think about how you barely say one word to each other now. But yea... im done. bye .